A time in retrospect
Sometimes people do not deserve your last word but in this instance- it matters.
If I combined all of my exs`, it would sum up of just one person. There were many red flags that I missed and thank God I didnt have any children by any of them.
That would be a disaster.
After being single for almost two years( if we count my last relationship of four months a relationship)- I realized that I have attachment issues. Its a pathology I am working on.
Attention. Is. Not. Love
Especially not from a mythomaniac; someone that constantly lies and or show narcissistic behavior. He lied about being divorced and having a criminal record- these were the biggest lies. In our last conversations before I blocked him on all social media platforms-
I wish I told him ‘thank you for showing me who you truly are so that I would be forced to love myself better.’ and ‘ You taught me what not to entertain’.
For now on, whoever I entertain seriously will have a background check. The pandemic alone has been traumatic so no need to throw myself into the dating petri dish again. Taking my time as I , long story short, improve myself spiritually, mentally, emotionally and physically. Since I told him off I have lost weight, graduated with my bachelor`s degree and made new friends. That relationship was the last straw for me to take my youth seriously, like, by not wasting it on anyone not worthy of my time.
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